This morning, calm, warm and gorgeous, I heard myself saying “I am almost back to my old self” and I realised what a silly thing that was! Which old self do I want to be back to? None of course, although the feeling that caused the utterance was one of good health, which I always appreciate. So walking on the beach I saw another walker doing laps and began to think again about going back to things from the past.
I have been cleaning out the entire house, taking away loads of books, clothes and stuff that has been overwhelming us for some time. My husband believes you must keep every potentially valuable thing because it will be exactly what you need one day. So some of those things, that have been waiting for their day for a very long time, have now gone off to be recycled elsewhere. I have been looking through papers, cards, books and old treasures, and packing them up too. I feel the need to be free of the weight of the past and ready for the moment, unburdened, fresh and open.
So if I seem to be returning to things that have gone it is just an illusion, I am spiralling around, in the flow of change that is life. At times things will feel familiar and comfortable, and at other times everything will feel new and exciting. Don’t you love the way life flows!
Last night we saw a wonderful film called HOME, by Yann Arthus-Bertrand, visually stunning with beautiful aerial shots of the Earth, but delivering the message that change is happening too fast for the planet and we all need to do our bit to live sustainably and equitably. Rather than doom and gloom the final sections stress that “It is too late to be pessimistic …” and cite all the hopeful actions taking place in nations across the globe. So where are you going?